I have a saying that hangs on the wall in my bedroom, right in the position where I can see it first thing in the morning as I open my eyes, and the last thing at night before I try to sleep.
It mocks me.
It mocks me because I bought the thing, I WANT to comply with its command, but sometimes I’m not very good at it.
It reminds me of a friend who told her husband,
“That’s it. We just really need to simplify our lives. No more complications.”
With a twinkle in his eye, he said,
“Great idea. Can we start by getting rid of 10 or 12 ‘Simplify’ signs?”
I am a world-class worrier. If I’m not worried about something, I worry that I’m just forgetting something that I should be worrying about. This shouldn’t come as a surprise. I bet you and I have met at worrying training conferences because I KNOW I’m not alone in this.
As an award-winning worrier, I’m worried about my son on a mission and if he’s happy and safe, I’m worried about his investigators, I’m worried about my daughter applying to colleges and if her heart is going to be broken if she doesn’t get in to the prestigious, expensive ones, and I’m worried how in the world we will pay for her to go if she does, I’m worried about my freshman in high school and that I don’t want him to be left out, but that I’m also a little concerned at how much he likes girls and how much they seem to like him back already (he’s only 14 people!), I’m worried about my husband’s job and if things are going well there, about my own work, about my clients, my laundry, my calorie intake, my scripture study or lack thereof, the sisters in my ward and neighborhood that are struggling, my parents’ and mother-in-law’s physical and emotional health, the state of my housekeeping and disorganization . . . ACK!!!!
Part of worrying is good. Worrying means that we care. It means that we want to improve and be better and make progress in our lives. Worrying is also a bad thing though, if it acts like mud on our shoes and creates stagnation toward progress.
What I really like about this sign is that it doesn’t just tell me NOT to do something. It tells me what I CAN and should do instead.
It counsels me to pray.
In order to pray, we have to believe, even if we believe only enough that we kneel down in hope that our prayers will be answered. As a Relief Society, our ward has chosen Mosiah 4:9 as our theme for the year.
Believe in God; believe that he is, and that he created all things, both in heaven and in earth; believe that he has all wisdom, and all power, both in heaven and in earth; believe that man doth not comprehend all the things which the Lord can comprehend.
I love this scripture. It’s like reading a stop sign that tells me to just B-R-E-A-T-H-E. In a life of to-do lists, these words just tell me where to begin, and give me confidence that I can do this much, even if I fall short on everything else. That’s really kind of backwards, because this scripture actually points me to the really big stuff, the stuff that should feel overwhelming and impossible.
And yet it doesn’t make me feel that way.
I do believe. I do know that He created all things. I do know and believe that he has wisdom, power, and that I don’t know everything.
I’m so glad I don’t know everything.
It’s exactly when I’m feeling that I SHOULD have all the answers that I feel overwhelmed because I know that I DON’T have all the answers. This scripture reminds me that it’s not necessary for me to comprehend everything, because that isn’t my job right now.
My job is just to simply believe.
With all of our goal-setting, worrying, and striving for improvement this month, I hope we will take a few moments and maybe write down what we simply believe. Maybe we could each have a family home evening and just talk with our kids and spouses about what we simply believe and know to be true.
When we start there, then we can kneel down and pray, and give our worries to the Lord, knowing that He will strengthen us, help us, and lead us back to our Father in Heaven.